Wednesday 9 March 2011: still life...
376:365: n. Representation of inanimate objects, such as flowers or fruit, in painting or photography
... or alternatively, the moment your world stands still when your child runs into the road. Which happened this evening on our way back from the shops. 'Cross to the middle and stop', I say... hands full of bags. Out runs Felix beyond the middle and into the farside lane. Screech goes the oncoming car. Honk goes the horn. Stop goes everything.
Then everything restarts. Everyone's okay. But my heart is in my mouth. My head is a mess. My shouty voice emerges and I watch detachedly as a deranged 30-something mother yells at her five year old 'I TOLD you to stop!!!'. And I'm shaking. And he's crying. And it's all horrible. But we're okay. And we get home in one piece. He sulks. I repeat the car safety message a few times. I try to explain why I was so frightened and I know he doesn't really get it. He got yelled at and mummy and the driver acted weird. So we cuddle. I reassure. And we move on. Then the action replay twists and turns around my head as we eat our dinner. And again as they're playing in the bath. Still life. Jeez. What if. What if...
*breathes out again*
Urgh. One of *those* moments. S'funny really. Today, otherwise, was pretty uneventful. Went into town for a coffee and a chat with a friend this morning. Got back at lunchtime ready for the shopping delivery to arrive. Did a frantic tidy up and put away... then walked to get the kids and got them home (though the weather was mercilessly cold and rainy en route). Had a drink and a snack before heading out again.
Then. The car incident.
PS Am also having a bit of a blip weirdness at the moment - not sure if I should carry on the daily thing or not. I don't feel like I'm participating in a community so much as hanging on by my fingernails. Which is crackers, huh? Will ponder a while...
PPS Oh, forgot to say - we did get that car we saw last night. It's little. It's pretty old. It's fairly low mileage. My mum helped out with the cost of it (thank you Mum!). And it's mine. Yay!
PPPS Cars, roads and kids do *not* mix. And I just added to the problem with another car. Go figure.