Wednesday 11 January 2012: The Parent-trap
Nobody warned me that when you have a child you say a big 'hello' to two other new residents in your life.
Worry and guilt!
I'm was always a pretty laid back, take-life-as-it-comes kinda gal, and to the most part I still am. But now, once I put Kai to bed and mull over the day, I begin to worry: that I'm making wrong decisions, that I don't find enough 'fun' things to do, that I'm not patient enough, that I am not a good enough mum. And then, Monsieur Guilt pipes up and it's all over! (I am being a little dramatic of course!).
Noticing this little spiral, I have decided to kick those squatters out and to spend my evenings remembering the good moments, the times Kai smiled, or got excited, or learned something new, or did eat his tea, or told me, 'I love you mummy!'
Of course I will always have room to improve, but when you are trying your hardest every day, a little positive thinking can't go amiss!
dedicated to all those wonderful, selfless, loving, 'not-perfect-but-trying-darn-hard-to-be' parents on blip whose stories and photos make me laugh, and smile, and cry and heave wacking great, ('it's not just me then!'), sighs of relief everyday!