Thursday 24 May 2012: Cactus Blossoms, Take II
I do enjoy these, and they won't be around long . . .
EDIT on 25 May, 2012:
Sorry, I didn't have the words when I published this, but now I think I can talk about my day . . .
A few weeks ago, my Endocrinologist's office called me to tell me that she had decided to return to school, so she would no longer be working with her patients. I really liked her, so this was a bit sad, but no big deal, right? As a follow up to thyroid cancer, I must continue seeing an Endo, so I set up an appointment with another one.
Today I had the appointment with that Endo, giving her all the files from the other office. I explained to her that I had had thyroid cancer removed with surgery and that my former Endo supported me 100% to wait until after having another baby before undergoing radioactive iodine therapy. My former Endo had actually told me that if she were in my position, she would do the same, and saw no problem with it.
Today's Endo is rather old-school with her thinking, so I wasn't sure how she would feel about that "agreement," but I was not at all prepared for what happened. I was more or less lectured for almost an hour about how irresponsible this decision was, even saying that I'm an irresponsible parent to Larkyn for even considering delaying the radiation. She told me that I should be thankful to have one child and consider adoption if I just don't feel that one child is enough. She attacked me from all sides, even asserting her religious beliefs in my face. She just kept telling me over and over that I could die and how stupid this was!
I left the office feeling physically beaten and cried my eyes out in the car.
My husband reminded me that this is NOT a new diagnosis, and that my other doctor, and the surgeon who removed the cancer BOTH said it would be acceptable (and not bonkers) to delay the radiation. So, of course I will seek another opinion, but I feel like my world has been turned upside-down again.
Thus the black and white processing of a usually cheery yellow blossom.