Monday 18 June 2012: What does the future hold?!
My uncle reading out the letter to me and my mother that inform him of the results of the psycho tests he's had while admitted at a nursing home. He's full of hope that he will soon return to his own house and home to live there and die there when time comes. He's horrified of life in the nursing home where daily routine is boring and many encounters unwelcome.
The results say that he's not capeble of reproducing a text he's just read and he needs another reading in order to understand the context.... so totally besides reality this conclusion! He's fully aware of the context of any text that has his interest and this report he knew already by heart - only few hours after receiving it. He spoke to us about its bearing and read us out loud to be as much informed as he is.
None the less he depends upon the decision made by others where he can / must live his final life time: his home or in a nursing home. And all he wants now is to live in his own home amongst his own belongings and routines and neighbours and die there eventually.
No fear of death, but fear of life in a nursing home.