Forget me.

They're gone now.

An idiot abroad has cheered me up for the past 5 days because of trying to get through this break up. It's horrible and me and Bethan spoke last night and she really doesn't want to be friends or more, I think she'll be happy without me.

I saw her today and it was horrible, she really despises me, she gave me my stuff back and it all smells like her and I am just going to give it to my mum and tell her to wash it. She gave me the stuff back that I said she could keep, which was especially sad. I miss her so much, it's heartbreaking.

But thankfully I have my book, my cat, my friends, and Karl Pilkington to make me smile and take my mind off shit. Though I miss my little group so much, I know things will never be the same. But things never are.

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You will be lost to me for the rest of my life, but I will never forget all the stupid things we did together, and the way you all made me feel alive even through the hardest of times.