Monday 2 July 2012: Buzzing Around ...
Funny to be back in the land of the Apache.
We took a walk in the forest. The Apache flew so low over us, that Finlay clung to my leg & hid in fear.
I find them a comfort.
As we walked, I had the thought I sometimes have, that nobody on earth knows where we are. When I was younger, I used to find that feeling liberating. Now I am a parent & walk with my children, well, sometimes it makes me anxious. That's a shame, I think. More than a shame.
We happened across a woodland dweller, asleep (or pretending to be) under a tree, with his dog. Finlay was full of questions about who he was. I felt vulnerable, in the middle of nowhere with a dawdling toddler ... And then we passed this freaky shrine thing, made up (presumably) with things found in the forest. Things like that give me the creeps.
I was grateful for the low flying Apache then. Someone would know we were there.
And I wondered, when did I get so paranoid? It's a really protective thing. My maternal instinct is overwhelming! Maybe it's because A is away at the moment, or maybe it's because walking in the woods seems like a really natural thing to do, but you hear so many horrible stories. I don't know.
I'll pick my walks more carefully now though.
I've got my babies to protect x