Tuesday 25 May 2010: Tune out
88/365: Back to having to snatch a blip on my way home - not a particularly imaginative shot, just kind of like this little decaying corner.
So, anyway... I've been at work again today and despite what felt like a really shaky start... actually, am going to stop right there. That's a lie. It didn't *feel* like one, it was one. Just couldn't pull myself together as I walked in and I had to give my apologies for the first meeting of the day since I could feel myself on the verge of another wobble. I'm like a blob of emotional jelly at the moment. Truly pathetic. Ah well. I've got a load of flexi time stored up and I've decided to take tomorrow off.
My brain is still doing the 'how can this have happened' gymnastics and it's wearing me down. I can't bring Dad back, even if I'm struggling to accept that he's really gone.
Time to tune out for a bit. I need some space and I'm going to get some.