Tuesday 4 December 2007: selfless, cold and composed?

i just thought i'd write to say good-bye because as much as i might try to say i'm strong enough to walk away without any word. . .i'm not. and really? i am not convinced that silence makes a person strong anyhow.

i don't know if you know this but - i've always been sorry that me loving me meant me not loving you the way you wanted.

but what good do apologies or explanations do us now?

there is too much i could say but none of it really matters anymore and most of it has already been said at some time in our history. you know this. i know this. let's not hate each other but hate how it all worked out, ok?

it's the right thing to do, us parting company. we can't really be friends. we've tried. if we earned a medal in anything it'd be for all our trying. we really fucking tried.

it's safer to think i don't care. if that's what you've got to tell yourself, i understand. whatever it is you need to move on, do it. just remember that i was once a girl standing before you that you believed was an angel.

but listen, enough of all this talk. know that i love you. i want you to be happy. so. . .go there.

without me.

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