Monday 9 January 2012: with light comes shadow.
The past few days I've been thankful for the healing in my heart and renewing of my passion for life. The light finally seemed to be returning. But alas, I was caught off guard by some things last night that sunk me down quite a bit. They were petty things, really. But still so powerful in affecting my perspective and attitude.
I've been reminded constantly today of something I heard yesterday afternoon:
"When im not satisfied, it's not because He's lacking. It's because I'm not partaking and I'm not seeing rightly. It's not because He's dissatisfying."
It's been quite convicting and frustrating and if I weren't so hung up in my pride, it would have been humbling.
Though my heart has encountered some discouragement I wasn't prepared for, I'm fighting for honesty and movement in the right direction.
"The right way to struggle means falling sometimes, but still moving forward in the right direction."
I refuse to be stuck anymore.
I will move forward. I will press on.