Hopelessly Devoted to You/Tainted Love.

Olivia Newton-John (Grease)/Soft Cell.

here's to trying to eat again.
to trying to gain weight back
(because putting on your favorite pair of black jeans,
zipping them up, and them completely sliding off isn't good).
here's to trying to do schoolwork again
and not neglect my work and fail my classes
(even though only one thing is stuck on my mind).
here's to trying to go a day without crying for hours
and finding a reason to smile about myself
even though i've never felt so alone, worthless, rejected.
here's to trying to find the happiness on my own
that i've never been able to find.
here is trying to be happy alone,
even though it is the last thing in the world i want.
here is to finding myself.
here's to trying to be my own friend,
because i'm all i will ever have.
here's to trying to forget...
...what i thought was the best thing that ever happened to me.
you make it seem like its so easy and you're happy and yet,
this is going to be the hardest thing i have ever tried to do...
and i'm so completely afraid of failing and falling off the edge.