decay

Isn't it mystifying how something can be so beautiful, even in death?

I spent the greater part of today in the ICU wing of the hospital, visiting my grandma. Now (on top of the cancer, blood loss,and possible pneumonia)her kidneys are shutting down. It's tragic to see her lying in bed hooked up to an IV receiving a dopamine drip and blood transfusion. Hopefully they find out what's going wrong and fix it. Quickly.
I also had a weird flashback when in the ICU and I literally broke down hysterical crying because my mind was just flooded with thoughts of Brendan. It was deplorable.

School tomorrow should be horrible, I'll try my best not to cry, no promises though.