gone

this should've been a good, celebratory day. and bits of it were. but bits of it were weird, bits frustrating, and the end make me DAMN ANGRY. emotional rollercoaster boy strikes again.

if you'd said you wanted the page by 6pm tonight, it would've been nice if you could've said so on one of the half-dozen times i asked this past fortnight, rather than at 2pm today. and i dunno where the hell you went at 9pm, but that story about photo albums was pure BS, i wish you wouldn't do that.

then a good time was had by a select handful - and a smaller handful again went onwards for more (tho i got the impression certain members of the party would've been happier without other members). still, it gave me the perfect opening line to a joke: a blonde, a brunette and a redhead walk into a bar (with a bloke) ...

good conversation, tho i can't help feel you would've rather been talking to the blonde on your right, but oh well. and E seems to have recovered from the crisis in the holyrood which you had to deal with (and that before the unconscious drinker on the floor you dealt with for the bar staff - you are such a fixit macho guy; i don't actually need your testosterone to keep me out of the way of pissed guys on the street, your testosterone provokes - tho F seems happy to be protected and shielded; maybe that's where i've been going wrong all this time).

but wtf makes it ok, after saying you'll see us ladies get home/taxis safely, for you to up and leave with F while i'm in the loo??? and wft is it with that text about yougoing home together? not funny. and wtf about you not replying to texts or calls for the next three hours. and wtf is the BS about she had a crisis - she was talking happily with the guy next to her when i got up, no way did she have a breakdown in the next 3mins, far more likely you said 'let's get going' when i turned my back and she readily agreed and you legged it. What. The. Fuck????

can't begin to describe how angry i am, i cried all the way home and beyond. this was a good night, a rare night out for me, and a patch on the friendship cracks, and you ruined it all.