Colorless

There is a lot of beautiful things to look at when Casey and I go for her walks in the woods but I am so focused on her that I hardly notice. I want to observe every step she takes, whether it appears labored in any way. I want to determine that when she squats to pee or poo that it seems effortless. I want her to go back ten years. I want my young dog back or at the least, I want the cancer to go away. This day-to day waiting game is wearing me down.