Have to be honest really struggling to find the motivation to continue with this journal at the moment with all the shit crap stuff I have going on in my life right now. Trying to use it as a distraction - we'll see...

I've had that horrible sick feeling in the pit of my stomach all day, not the sort you get from illness but from that nagging feeling that just won't go away when you know something is wrong but you just can't.....

Not done much of anything, just pottered about, mooched to the shops - the usual.

Jesus! My journal is getting depressing!! At least I got the camera out, although I'm sure I could have achieved this on the bloody iphone.