Suicide

It's almost a month ago that a friend of mine killed himself. 
I feel like i don't seem to get it that he's death. It feels like he just went to a place somewhere else. But no, it really doesn't feel like he's gone forever.
He had an amazing voice and really beautiful eyes. He used to laugh all the time, and helped everyone who needed it. Including me. We went for long night-rides while talking, crying and laughing.
At his home, he had cherrietrees. And we went sneaking inside his garden at 4a.m. and eat some. The ride to his house was 1hour and we stayed just to eat cherries.
He was so amazing, but i also knew that he wanted to end this life on earth. 
So when i heared, i was happy for him.
But i was also very sad, 'cause i would never hear is voice again, even tho i don't realize that yet.