Feeling guilty

I have had one of those days where everything has got on top of me and feel that I am not spending enough quality time with Esther.

I am doing a fair bit of freelance work at the mo which I enjoy doing as it keeps me sane but then a part of me thinks I should be spending every second I can with Esther while on maternity. I understand that some people go back after six months because they need the money. We are fortunate enough that I can have a year off, so why am I doing this extra work?! Am I going to regret it when shes a bit older and feel I should have spent the time with her when I had the chance?

Reading that back sounds like I am shipping her off to a child minder, I'm not. She's sat on the floor next to me (as pictured) playing with her toys and as soon as she gets niggly I join her and play her give her a big cuddle. I am 99% sure I will be there to hear her first 'Mummy' and see her take her first steps. She has always got a big smile on her face, she's happy! So why am I am feeling this guilt? Maybe I just need an early night.