Wednesday

A friend gave me a membership for Historic Scotland for the year.
Today I visited Blackness Castle.


I am finding this week incredibly hard. No structure, no plans, no routine, nobody to see. I have struggled to motivate myself, my anxiety is constant. I have self harmed a lot.  I am feeling really low and finding it hard to have the energy to speak. I have caught myself in a dream or staring at nothing for a long time.
I wish I had said to my counsellor I could see her this week.