Sunday

Woke close to lunch time. I had had well over 12hrs sleep and I still felt so tired.
As with yesterday , the first thing I thought of was work.
I have felt anxious all day, at times unable to stop shaking.
I took a drive before coming home and sat on the grass in front of this scene.
I have been close to tears, and when I finally got home from being with Mum I dissolved.  I have self harmed and am now having a few ciders before I head to bed. If only I didn't wake up.