By eddymann


Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matt 11:28-30)

During my father's recent home hospice journey. I, the sole caregiver, found myself driven to a breaking point. Push anything to it's limits, and it will break down. My '69 Volkswagen Beetle will attest to that. 

Sleep deprived, I found myself wandering from some of the basic daily necessities. I know some who will find this unbelievable, but days passed without me picking up a guitar... or writing... or even reading. Irritable, cranky, certainly tired all were honest descriptive words that could have been attached to my behavior and or mood. Think twenty-eight days with intermittent sleep.

Serving wasn't the issue, but seeing clearly was. In my attempt to be all things at all times for my father, I became inadequate at taking care of things at home, namely my own health.

Six days you shall work, but on the seventh day you shall rest. (Exodus 34:21)

So as God would have it, eighteen hours before his last breath, I woke from an hour nap to find myself broken health wise. Now tired I could do, but broken I couldn't. Yes, God found a way to school me even in my father's last waking hours. 

Guilty I am of not leaning enough on him; guilty I am of not heeding His words concerning rest, and guilty I am of not trusting in His love.

For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.” (Jer 31:25)

I went to bed the night after his passing to rest. I went to bed repeating God's words of wisdom. I went to bed to satisfy my weary soul, and to be replenished. 

Pray on,

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