The pandas are still on

So today was most probably the worst day of my 34 years on the planet.

Mum's cancer is incurable. They can manage it with chemo and put a stem in her throat so she can eat again but it's not operable. They also found cancer cells in her liver. I spoke to her on the phone and she seemed very positive about the whole thing. I just hope she gives the chemo a go like she says she will. No one who hasn't had chemo can judge anyone who doesn't stick to it but I still really really want her around for as long as possible. Esther needs her Nanny and I need my Mum.

I read a post on the net about incurable vs. terminal. It said to see incurable as living with manageable cancer. I'll take that view.

A man with incurable cancer posted - Everyone will die at some point. See it as standing in the bus lane. At some point every one of us will be hit by a bus, the only difference is that he knows the number of his bus.

I'm hoping my blips will get back to being more cheerful news very soon.