Heartbroken

Today was my sisters 40th. It was also the day that my Mum died. Me and my sister had about ten minutes with her holding her arm before she was taken by that awful disease. Dad was with her for the few hours she was in A&E. The doctors think the tumour had grown in her throat so rapidly that she never got the chance to try chemo but an autopsy will clarify things. She had her eyes closed but they said she could hear us, I do hope so, I really do.

I can't believe she won't get to meet the baby and I can't believe Esther no longer has a Nanny, every kid should have a Nanny.

Mum and Dad clearly played down how ill she was. I'm not angry with them but I wish they hadn't. I'd have been a lot more tolerant with Mum if I had known and made sure she knew how much we all loved her.