Work.

All I ever do is cry and study.


At least the two don't yet correlate. 

I don't really have anything else to add today...

Still feel useless after last night. He's invited me to another day with his family and I just can't do it. I'm having family stuff happen now too and I just can't cope with being a worthless and disappointing girlfriend and my family separating right now.

I've already disappointed him and let him down so I guess declining can't do much more damage lmao.

I hate myself so much.

I genuinely wish I was dead.