A Little Bit Broken

I feel lost and alone. I am not lost and alone. I just feel that way. People say that you need to trust others, but why would I trust, when everyone is letting me down. Even the most trusted ones are capable of making you sad. 
My mother used to tell me never close the doors of someone so that you can escape when they let you down. I never closed that door, never. And now I am incapable of trusting others. She told me that everyone cheats, everyone lets you down. It turned out that this situation was a mirror. You don't trust so you become a person nobody can trust. Years pass and you grow up, nothing changes. You are still unstable and a little bit broken...