Friday

I gave Mum a 6month subscription of flowers and this month they came the day she went on holiday for 2wks, so she gave them to me. These are part of them.

Today has been awful. I have been in a foul mood. I woke up ok, then it hit me. All day. Work was hard, I escaped at lunch and sat at the harbour. It didn't help me but it was nice to be out the noise.

 On my mind a lot today, I have played out how I would finish my life and found pleasure in it.

5 sleeps and counting to the psychiatrist.