lighter

went to work today and it was actually bright, sunny and a blue sky. i'm easily pleased (well, my SAD is, anyway), and it set me up for a good night. that i also actually had a good night is little short of miraculous...

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<thanks for talking. i know sometimes you don't want to, and the sane me gets that, but both the sane and the neurotic me like to just be told 'i don't want to talk about it' - i'll stop pushing and you'll stop biting my head off and we'll nip that vicious circle in the bud (as t'were).
remember what we were like when we met? you're more assured, an iron grip of control; i'm less certain and more depressed - but we're the same people underneath. and that means that when we talk, we're ok. sure, i still want to talk about the elephant in the room, but i want to just talk, too. i miss the crazy random chats we had, and i miss the way you opened up to me (i'm glad to hear i'm not the only one who gets pissed off with being shut out!). i hope you want it enough to make time to do it again in the future - i'm not asking for dates and times, to know you want it is enough.
things have changed hugely - but that doesn't mean we can't have other good things instead of the good things we had. i prefer evolution; you're all about revolution at the minute - but we're both capable of change and of coping with change, we just need to communicate. remember, some things you can't fix by hitting them ;-) >