Saturday

I woke this morning and instantly felt my heart racing and thumping. Supermarket wasn't very successful,  it was so busy and I was getting really agitated. 
Later I thought a walk through the Botanics would be good. It was; it was quiet. I was heading back out when I started to shake along with the heart stuff going on. Had to sit for  a bit. 
Home and had a full panic attack which I am still in and ended up self harming which needed steri stripes. 

I f****** hate life.