End of a busy day

It’s been a tiring few days and a fairly up but, mostly down, few days since I last blipped.

Depression hasn’t been good along with a few times when anxiety would strike without notice or reason.

Not how I wanted to start my second run of 365’s. But things can change quickly. The high hopes vanished into a rapid down hill that tainted almost everyday.

Other days it’s just been the normal round of fibromyalgia, pain, tiredness, fatigue, low mood, a total and utter lack of enthusiasm, anxiety and depression.

I see a lot in the media about celebs “coming out” and talking about mental illness. My cynical sides sometimes questions the validity (despite having no proof to the contrary) of their stories. I sometimes wonder if it’s a band wagon to jump on. Mental illness is horrible to live with and have often not cared if I lived or not. Mental illness can rob you of the sheer pleasure that life can be and turn it into something you wade through with difficulty.

I think it was Sunday. I found out from my Sister my brother had died. Never really knew him as he moved to Australia when I was a toddler. Difficult to have feelings for the loss of someone you don’t know. I was just left with the sadness that I never had the relationship with him I would have liked to have.

It’s just me and my Sister left now family wise.

Today’s blip is of an image of my iPad I intend to use to catch up with Blip my Sony and big lens that has brought me some moments of joy when photographing birds in the garden. And if a new arbour bench to enjoy the garden from.

The arbour is the first of 3 new editions to the garden. The other 2 are mature hedges to plug some gaps in the existing planting. Hopefully this will mark the start of getting on with things garden wise. We’ve waited for a loose plan to come together and now it has.