Grave Matters

This is where we buried Nisha.  Her body is under the cornflowers and I will always plant cornflowers on this spot.  And yes, the rosemary is huge.

After the sadness of the weekend there is a lot of anger (in my head at any rate).  That was our Nisha and she deserved so much more.  So much more.

I give my love unconditionally - there are no ifs or buts - and when the love is taken away through nothing I have done, I fall into the deepest of depressions.

I have no problem in saying that I'm struggling.  Really struggling.

And then there are things that help.

I was on the phone this morning to a colleague, trying to sort out some problems that I didn't cause.  And i fixed them.  I don't think he could quite believe that I had.

My main strength is that I always have time for your problems.  I will always try to help.  I can't change that.  No more than I can change that I'm tall.

In a way, I'm Helpless