Getting ready

Decided to take a walk to our local supermarket today its only half a mile away! But for some reason instead of turning left at the top of the road I turned right and decided to take a longer walk. Turned out a 4 mile walk.

Took a few photos with my phone thinking they would make good Blips but decided against them all for one reason or another.

I do have it in my mind to try and be a bit more upbeat with my blips but on the other hand I want my blips to reflect my daily life. And that isn't always as great as I would like it to be.

The depression that I felt deeply before has given way to bouts of sadness. Mostly if not entirely down to my Fibro (fibromyalgia).

I can't quite remember when I got that diagnosis but it must be around 4 years ago by now.

For anyone who might read or stumble upon this Blip and who doesn't know what Fibro is it can be many things too many different people and to varying degrees.

My version involves periods of mostly low level pain. Apart from localised pain my body just feels like its been beaten up. The pain is eased by morphine patches which I need to change every 3 days and a couple of nerve related drugs. 

In addition there is Fibro fog. Something I have been getting again over the last few days. Fibro fog for me includes difficulty in thinking, concentration and making decisions. I often want to just lay down and sleep. Fog often brings anxiety. Easily scared, intolerant to noise and close proximity to people and social situations. Didn't make it too easy when I found myself walking through a local street market on my extended walk.

Poor memory, conversational difficulties, trying to remember that thing that was key to what you wanted to say. Balance and walking problems seems to be creeping in too. I'm sure I've missed other things. Oh I have. Just remembered. Exhaustion! Total and utter lack of energy! Getting up is good, having a shower and getting dressed is great but then the sofa calls. And sleep. Even though Ive only just gotten up.

All those low level but persistent things have turned me a tad gloomy and I'm sure poor company. And that makes me sad.

So if you meet someone with Fibro you have a bit of an idea of the challenges they might be facing.

Ive written all that down to get it out of the way. Those things are part of my daily life but I hope I can find far nicer things to base my blip on going forward. 

Lots of great things are in the pipeline for next year and it will be great to share them here on Blip.