Easter

April is usually a difficult month for me, I have had a lot of loss during April in the past.

I am so lucky to have not felt overwhelming grief and sadness for a good couple of years now at this time of year and I have so many amazing things in my life now, I know they will be glad to see me happy and settled.

Today I went to the family grave to chat to my grandparents who were parents to me. I told them lots about what was going on, which I’m sure they already know! I cleaned the grave and cut back the grass, just like Nan used to direct me to do when we went together…she got too frail to do it herself but even when she couldn’t walk, I would take her in a wheelchair. I asked her if it was clean enough ‘just like she wanted it’. The rituals we had for 40 years don’t stop just because they aren’t next to me.

I am so relieved to have such strong faith now, it’s changed my life. They believed in God and I know one day we will be reunited.

They were very special and kind people indeed.

They would be pleased to see me at church tomorrow on such an important day.

I love you so much x