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My mother in law got to go home today which was great news. She will have to come back to the clinic.  

I didn't have a good day for the first half. I had a few emotional breakdowns to the nurses.  I don't cry, so for me it leaves me feeling quite vulnerable.  I'm just fed up with my pain and the meds not helping yet. It's just trying to find a balance of what's going to work . And we need to get it right so I can go home. 

Anyway I made some more origami stuff to try and keep my brain focused on something else. 4 nurses wanted some tulips. And I tried to make a dinosaur for the jedi. Even if it looks dodgy.  Hahaha. 

My wildlings cheered me up when they came for a visit. Lincolns ears were black as he has been doing his own showers since I've been here. So I ended up getting the 3 smaller wildlings to have their shower here at the hospital and I could sit on the shower seat and wash their hair and give them a scrub. It felt good having that moment with them. A little normality even in a different place. 

A discussion with the nurses and a doctor today. Although they encourage being mobile in hospital it's not the right thing for me. I took 127 steps yesterday with crutches  and felt so proud of myself even if my back disagreed , and a small amount of steps this morning.  But it's aggravated the discs which has made the nerves in my leg and nether regends go tingly and numb. So I've to stick to the chair to get about in. I actually can't believe that 17 days ago I could run and was enjoying it and now I can't frigging walk much at all. 

Anyway I'm going to stop moaning.  Tomorrow is a new day. 

And I'm sorry I'm not the greatest blip friend at the moment and not catching up with you all.