Reality

Up at normal time as I was travelling to Wetherby for my first meeting of my new company.

The journey up was without any problems, but as 9am came I realised that would be my normal SLT call with my team. No more. My phone is now silent. There were tears, this is the new reality.

The meeting went ok, I knew most of the people in the room so that wasn't so bad. But it did make me realise how far ahead I had made my previous company when I was looking at the information provided to me in this meeting. We were streets ahead and it just makes me realise again what I've lost. And it bloody hurts.

And then a trip across to Penrith before tomorrow's meeting, where I will discover more of the time commitment required from me over the next two months and beyond. I am grateful that I had this opportunity available to me given the circumstances.

My young padawan messaged me. My hope is that she finds a new job soon, that will make me feel slightly better knowing that I wouldn't have worked with her there even if I had stayed. 

Boy, today has been so tough. Reality has kicked in big time and the tears just flow. I wish this pain would go away.

Today I am thankful for:

1. This work opportunity