Keep calm..

Went to visit Lydia and Sian today in Cardiff. The bay was so beautiful I couldn't stop taking pictures. I hope to never fall out of love with my camera, as I did before. Lydia appeared alright; happy and bubbly as usual. But she's struggling. It always starts to show when were about to leave. The mask falls away and you see how sad she really is. I pray that she will be ok. I pray it more than anything. I can't stand to see her pain, perhaps because I feel the same. We have a disease you see. We are different. Some days everything is good, most of the time it is not. It never leaves you. Not really.