Opposites

The sea is calm; I am not.

I woke up still feeling the effects of yesterday. My head was thumping and I was feeling anxious.
Had breakfast and realised I had forgotten a few things at the supermarket. Threw clothes over my pj’s and did a quick shop. I stopped the car at the front and stared at the calming water. It didn’t work, got me more anxious for some reason and I wanted to scream.

Back home I have lain on the sofa, stared at the tv, cried, cut, have thrown a ceramic pot and kicked things several times. I feel a bit of a mess.

I just want to be happy.

Sorry I’ve been a rubbish blipper recently.