Still not black and white!

First thank you all for your thoughts and wishes, things are a little less raw today.
I must apologise for yesterdays ambiguous post. I am I accept at an age where there are more despatches than hatches with in the family and friends, and while emotional about these events I deal with them. Yesterday was the first and I hope the last time I have to make sense of a great friend, on learning of a terminal illness, taking his own life. Again I apologise but putting this here is one way in which I can deal with it. Take care one and all.