3 weeks old

Maybe since he is sleeping, i will try to get a real post in...

Its been 3 weeks since I had my handsome little man. At first he never cried, hardly at all. My moms said he needs to cry, he's got no lungs on him, no voice. He squeaks a bit, but he's gotten into a bit of a fussy stage now. we've definitely heard the cries.

A friend of dans at his work offered him a free tassimo machine a week ago. we were both like - thats awesome. and so i started to drink some pretty delicious coffee, after not even drinking regular coffee for the last couple years. and 4 in a day, as delicious as they were, over stimulated baby through the breastfeeding. he was tired, but he couldnt sleep and so he would just cry... and as a result, i would just cry. dan saved me a couple times, giving me naps and keeping the baby occupied, between feeds. my mom too, she's content to hold Jaxon and pat his little bum forever, and rock him. which is exactly what he wants. its a big relief when he only seems to want to cuddle on boobs & dan has none, therefore i'm completely immobilized for extended periods of time. so when he is happy to cozy up on grammy, i'm happy to relax a bit.

he's tiring, but i love him so much. i'd do anything to make him happy.

hes grown so much, i notice when i'm nursing him, because he's heavier & now he's feeding for longer. he looks so tiny in anyone elses arms, but when i hold him and he stretches out i'm just like "you're so big! when did this happen?!" even though he's still too small for most of the clothes, and what fits him in the legs, doesn't fit his arms, & is way too big around the neck. we have a few outfits though

today is a laundry day though, as he has puked & peed on pretty much everything. i'll get to that later though. ugh. and the dishes potentially..

i am feeling good after delivery and whatnot, but i can't wait for these friggin stitches to heal, they're itchy & in the way & sometimes tug. D: