Daisy Chain

Ive needed to do a lot of soul searching recently so i dont forget who i am. when someone you love hurts you with their actions things get very confusing. they have done a horrific thing but you can still love them and it is the most horrible thing trying to force yourself to let them go, because its not fair on yourself to be hurt so much.
i am a simple, old fashioned girl living in a modern world that has got out of control. people no longer think before they act and dont look far enough in the future to see the concequences of their actions. what scares me most is what if i have higher morals than everyone else and noone can ever quite live up to them now? especially when you believed the one you were with had the same standards you did, and they didnt. did i really know them at all?
i spent a lot of time trying to make someone happy, feel special because from what id heard their past hadn't necessarily been to rosy, and they seemed like such a nice kind person, just so despirate to please.
what has become clear though is while i was putting all that effort in i became more and more of a safety blanket to them, and i think they began to forget i was there and just quite how much id done for them. they did the worst thing they could have done to hurt me and i wouldnt have believed it possible that they were capable of such a thing.
where do i go now? well the world is my oyster, its just hard to see that right now.
i picked the name daisy chain for myself as i felt that a daisy symbolises me the most. a simple, yet pretty flower. i dont expect too much from life, despite what people might think. i just dont want to go unappreciated (much like the humble daisy). i just want to feel better sooner rather than later!