Empty

A 10-day-late back blip

I'm writing this 10 days later yet remembering clearly the need to create a feeling of nothingness and emptiness. Wanting to slow down and calm down.

As I couldn't declutter my mind enough to take a decent photo, or think of anything to write about - other than the panic in my head, I sat at the dining room table and snapped a knife and fork.

2 days before the graduation in Portsmouth. We went shopping and got food and drink in for our guests and I tried to tackle the VAT return.

I wanted to run away. It was better than worrying about the coming days.

It seemed like a meaningless, pointless photo. But it summed up the mood>

Expectant.
Waiting.