Looks can be deceptive!

I added a comment to my last Blip stating I wouldn’t be blipping anymore!

This was very much a knee jerk reaction brought about by depression and an overwhelming feeling of needing to retreat from the outside world.

I have periods of depression. Have done for some years. Partly down to life’s past ills, bereavement, and my fibro. The current pandemic hasn’t helped either.

Anxiety comes on as easily as switching on a light. The very thought of going into town and getting my hair cut (it’s very long now), being trapped in a chair actually made me feel so anxious I spent the majority of yesterday asleep on the sofa. That was after a good nights sleep!

Today (the day this is blipped) I have anxiety about getting anxiety. It’s a real horrible cycle to be in and I worry about the impact on LG.

I wanted to post this blip to explain. I want to record my daily photos, to record my life, to share, to participate. I really wish I could and would understand why anyone might find it hard to conceive how hard I find this. But I do.

Going forward there will be times I blip. Times I don’t. Likewise with comments. I know that’s how it can be. There are no real rules other than the ones I place on myself. And there lay one of many difficulties to overcome.

I hope that makes sense.

I hope the future has lots of good things in store. That I can share.

The garden is lovely.

I just need to feel how lovely it all is.