A familiar view

Slept heavily, woke early but got off again....gone 9 when I got up! Had to get a move on as had arranged things to get on with today........which helped stop me dwelling on reality for a while anyhow.

Ran the hoover around, freshened up two vases of flowers, trimmed their ends, fresh water & feed etc. Went to collect youngest, brought him back to ours (cant bring myself to say mine yet!!) We had a quick lunch, scrambled eggs on toast....sods law the phone call Id been waiting for from the Registrar came just as the eggs were ready!

Daughter came round too and we met with the civil celebrant who will lead hubs service next week......we held it together pretty well overall, just the odd wobble! We were content and now await sight of his words later this week, together with the running order for the service.

I had been rather disappointed not to have had a call from Christies from hubs consultant, doctor or nurse, but the call came this afternoon from his specialist nurse, we talked for a good while which was nice.

Ran youngest son back home and got back again just after 5.30, having picked up a Costa, as I had promised myself I would go into our Summerhouse today.......I knew I would find it upsetting, and I did, but its done know. I was sat sipping my coffee looking out at the garden and thought Id take a pic from hubs seat for my blip, just as I pressed the shutter, Sammy squirrel popped out of the border, into a pool of sunlight.... which made me smile, like someone knew how I was feeling?!!
I stayed there until the sun had gone from the garden.

Spaghetti bolgnese for my dinner....it was ok, spent a lot of this evening sorting things for the order of service, via whatsapp with our 3......we are getting there.

I am planning to go to Maggies tomorrow morning, as hub is being picked up from the hospital....its taken longer than I would have liked because of the Easter weekend. Just feels like the right thing, to be close by until he makes his journey back here, at the same time as me.

Ive had an email from Cancer Research today assuring me that all the money raised on my page will be allocated to Lung Cancer Research.....which I am pleased about. Leaving my page open until after the funeral as there are still donations being made following hubs passing <3

If I havent thanked you personally if you have donated, Im sorry, but please know just how much I appreciate all your support at this time xxx