Today would have been Henry's 14th birthday. A lifetime has passed since we had to say goodbye, yet in the weird way time behaves, it's almost like it was just a few years ago.

We didn't get to know who he was so we can only wonder. Would he have been like Toby or Eva or completely different in the way siblings can be. Whoever he grew up to be, he is so loved and missed and will never be forgotten. 

Anniversaries are hard. You spend the whole day thinking about what should have been. And looking back, which is painful but the only time we had with him so we go over and over those hours we got to hold him while we just waited, completely helpless, for him to slip away. 

We spent today day walking in the sunshine with the kids and the dogs. We found a lovely pub for some lunch. I'm so thankful for some family time and that the day has passed peacefully.