A change of perspective

Today was my first day back at work after last week's unplanned leave.  It's fair to say I am a bit of a self-confessed workaholic, I've often used being busy at work as a coping mechanism to ignore the other stresses and strains of life.  Don't get me wrong, this isn't without it's rewards - I have a good job and a wonderful team around me.  But today felt different.  The world has shifted on its axis for some of us, and I'm not sure I am ready for it to tilt back.

So after a week of reflection / introspection and wondering really what any of what I do is all for I opened my laptop this morning very much with a sense of "well, I don't have to do it ALL today.  I can just do what I can as a human being".  And so it was.  Not everything went swimmingly.  I'd managed to forget to send some online meeting invites out.   I (unsurprisingly) did not get round to a respond to a week's worth of emails in my inbox but I did respond to what felt like the most urgent ones.  I gave myself permission to set an out of office which explained why I wouldn't be responding to everything straight away today. I stopped actually working at 5.40 (this is progress, I promise!)  I ate lunch...alright, it was at 2.45pm and I only had 15 minutes to make it and eat it in, but I did do it.  I read 2 pages of my book while I ate it, and thought about Folkie (because P told me last week that Folkie always stopped for lunch and read across her lunch break.  The woman really was a genius).  In my change of perspective I treated myself like a human being, not a one-person email responding machine.  I'm not sure longer term whether I want to stick exactly with the roles and responsibilties I've got, but all of this feels like a jumping off point to actually start to think about what it does all mean.

So in honour of my change of perspective, I thought my Blip today could be a change of perspective too.  It was going to be a picture of the new lightshade in our bedroom which I am obsessed with as it's made of glass and so pretty when the light is on, but I thought... "what would be the light-fixture-eye view of that?"  And here it is.  A pleasing glowing crescent moon of light.  It can't even see the new lightshade, but turns out it's still a really pleasant view nonetheless.  Who knew a whole new perspective could be just as good, if not better, than the old one.

As a side note I did of course fall off the bed taking an upside view of the sky in case this photo didn't work, but noone who has met me would be surprised by that fact. It has been 0 days without a Taz mishap!