Autumnal look

But not an Autumnal feel. 

A bit of a complicated start to the day but a phone call was made and I went out to practice for my test tomorrow, and just as the instructor said things had assimilated overnight and everything felt so much easier today, even in the windy gusts. I think this is the first time before a test I have felt any level of confidence that I know what to do. I think that is probably the biggest aspect the examiner wants to see. I was relaxed and the bike then handles the way it should. I feel as ready as I can be for tomorrow.

I stopped on the way home to the bench in the churchyard where Mum's ashes are and had a chat with her. I always remember in 1998 when I was taking my finals and the last exam was organic chemistry, which was my favourite subject and I had revised well, calling her the evening before and saying I was afraid to go to bed, and when she asked why I said in case all my knowledge falls out of my brain and I wake up in the morning and there's a jumble of chemistry stuff on my pillow! She told me I would be fine, and I was. She could have gone to America with Dad on one of his trips but chose to stay behind to support me. She said when I came into her office on the way home from my exam beaming from ear to ear she wouldn't have wanted to miss that! I do miss having her there to reassure me.