Then Night Comes

Full Crate x Mar - Man x Woman (GANZ Edition)

An excruciatingly hot day that drew instant sweat from my body. As I woke up at 10am I had 20 minutes of snooze time and had the choice of either going to the gym or just resting my body. I swore myself awake and made way to exercise. It was well worth it and I approached today with much more zest and passion than I normally would have on a regular first day of the week in my life. The gym is a distraction for me currently because I have fear of making moves to better progress myself. I have strong fears of falling into an endless trap of anxiety whereby I choose not to change my job. The stresses that come when moving house, redirecting finances, and the darkness of the unknown can be overwhelming. I know too many people who are stuck in these areas and frightfully see myself falling into that trap. I'll fall into others, but I know that I will choose not to fall into that one. I must accept the fact that I'm supposedly a full-grown adult and it's with an heir of confidence that helps me to take a step forward.

...and as time passes by and these problems overcome, I will forget them and won't believe the success and circumstances that brought me here. The pain of misunderstanding, rejection, powerlessness, psychological paralysis, anxiety and the like just fade away. I can drown beneath the tumultuous waves of emotional distress or use logic to float along the currents and marvel at the sky.