All aboard!

Thank you for all the kind words regarding my mum yesterday. It was an odd sort of day - anxiety > relief > doubts > anxiety. Full circle.

We're still not entirely sure what it was all about (and for some reason my mum has stopped asking questions and querying things at her recent appointments which has made me realise that I'm going to have to start going with her and we'll have to get someone in to care for my dad). I think the appointment was due to the fact that my mum was successfully treated for breast cancer 9 years ago and then she went on a breast cancer drug trial. I think they have to keep checking that the treatment worked and whether it has any other side effects. We were thinking that it was all to do with the clots she had over the summer but I think it's just a coincidence that all the appointments have come in a big heap.

Anyway the scan did show something up (a hotspot) at the base of her spine and she'd going to have to go for another, more intense scan. The specialist said that she didn't think it anything to worry about and it was just to double-check. "Nothing to worry about" *sigh* I'll try.

My head was a bit all over the place last night and I kept getting myself upset but trying to see things more positively today. Double-checking everything is essential when someone has taken part in a drug's trial. My mum knew that when she agreed to it, just wish she'd clarified a few things with the specialist, for her own peace of mind, as well as the rest of the family's.

Did loads of clerical work this morning and sorted all mum and dad's bills into a clearly marked and organised folder... I'm good at stuff like that ;)

My blip is of the Christmas Lego set that I've got all set up on the dining table at the moment! (I'm not quite sure where we are going to eat tonight!) I ordered it last week and had it delivered here. It's absolutely gorgeous, with the added bonus that it can be motorised. I'm still unsure whether to fork out for the electrical set that goes with it.

Added an extra of Holly's and my shadow this afternoon in the park. The light came lovely. When I got back mum said that my dad had been worrying and wanting to come and look for me all the time I was out. It's a good job I only went a small, fast walk. Things are very difficult at present.