Weak but positive

Was almost too scared to say I was starting to feel better because the better days have always been followed by bad ones, but I did manage to get up and have a bath and considered it quite an achievement. I collapsed again straight afterwards of course.

The coughing fits continued throughout the night and I had to keep popping painkillers but I did manage to sleep a little on and off, and didn't have to remain completely upright. Trying to breathe is not making me feel so distressed anymore.

I watched lots of TV on my iPad in bed - and knew that meant I was feeling less ill.
2 days ago the TV was merely a source of noise and light to distract me from considering topping myself.