Breakfast

Today has been absolutely ship. Think I've had about 9 crying outbursts as the pain has been horrendous.  I felt bad for the nurses. Thankfully I keep knowing the ones on shift. But the pain relief didn't even touch it . And I was having oxy liquid every hour. The pain nurse came to see me and she saw me when I first had the accident.  I know her too so it was good to catch up. And she now has me on ketamine and oxy. So I'm uploading my blip before my brain gets wasted. But I so hope it helps with the pain. I want to just run away. ...... well not run but you know what I mean. 

My surgeon saw me during all this and I had a cry to her to. She understands how frustrated I am and she wants me to have the operation.  But it comes down to Edinburgh.  I don't think they have beds. But she was going to call them as some of my symptoms have got worse and all those 3 discs can cause clauda equine.  

I'm hoping my wildlings come and see me after dinner but I'm not sure I'd be able to hold it together if they cried leaving me again. It's the 3 bigger ones sports day tomorrow and they're upset I can't go. 

I'm going to order them something online for keeping everything together and getting on with everything.  I ordered Mr R something yesterday and I know he will absolutely love it and it will take centre stage on his office desk. 

I have hugged 2 strangers today.  People that are going through such challenging and sad times and heartbreaking situations.  And all I could do was to offer a hug. But I hope it helped for a bit. 


Oh and that was my breakfast this morning. ( my thumbnail) 
Thankfully my friend Katie brought me oranges when she came last night.