Empty

What a s*** day.

Woke and had breakfast. Took a diazepam and went back to bed. Slept. Woke hours later, took another one and slept again.

I feel nothing, flat, tearful and my body aches. Took another tablet and slept again.
Despite being in bed and indoors for days on end I am expected tomorrow to help Mum move stuff into my Grandma's care home and wait for her to be discharged from hospital. I am dreading it. Finding it quite hard to accept that Grandma is now going to be in a care home and leaving here there on her own will be hard.

I really don't want to keep going. I want to sleep the days away.